Friday, September 25, 2009

Oh the brevity...........................

NOTE: I know I have not blogged in a very long while, and belive me, I planned to blog about more interesting things, things more 'alive', but I am sorry I have to talk about death again.............


I lost a dear one early hours this morning.
It started with a call that he was being rushed to the hospital, we sure panicked, I found myself assuring everyone not to despair, I prayed, asked God for a miracle and was waiting........
It ended with a call that he was being taken to the mortuary....Mortuary ke? Oh God!

I can see the faces of those around me, heavy eyes, all worn out from hours of crying
I can hear the different anguished voices ( over the phone) of those being informed about the tragedy.

I wish I called him, I promised to call him.......
We've been discussing some issues, He asked me to do somethings, I have avoided calling him, thinking....'he would 'harras' me about the issue again.
I wish I allowed him stress me, bug me, harass me and do anything else he wanted to do.

I wish I had not procastinated, I wish I had asked him 'how far'?
He's been helping me pursue somethings, and for some days now I've been thinking I needed to call him to know how far he had gone, but I kept saying 'I would call him',...'he is always there'
A friend asked after him 2 nights ago, I said I was goign to call him to ask how far
I wish I called to get a feedback from him, I wish I knew the latest developments, his last efforts

I never had the opportunity to say good bye,
I did not get to know his last thought about the issues we discussed last.
I deprived myself the pleasure of hearing his voice for the last time, of knowing his last thoughts

I made a decision today; to say everything to whoever I need to say it to, call whoever I needed to call ASAP and not push it to later.....the reality is that I AM NOT SURE they would always be there.

I feel like asking God if this is fair, He knows some people should not die now.
but then, I have been convinced long before now that "God is good' and that we would understand somethigns better at the other side of eternity

I am wondering ......
Does it mean that till my dying day I would not see his face again in this world?
Does this mean that this man would no longer be a part of my life?
Is it possible that I would learn to live in a world without him?
Is it possible that he would not have the pleasure of witnessing one of the most happiest events of my life coming soon as he had so wished?
Is it possible that he did not live to see the one thing he desired most and we all prayed day and night for, for him?
Did he know he would not live to see the transaction he was trying to conclude just 7 days ago?
Did he know that he was not going to live to see the people he asked to meet him some place tomorow?
Oh the brevity of life!

Words fail me..................
Adeiu Kabiru Adesina!

27 comments:

akaBagucci said...

can feel the pain.. we can only trust that God understands best..

Dee! said...

Accept my sympathy. May God Almighty grant him rest in His bossom. Amen.

aloted said...

gosh! so sorry to read about this...

short of words

yankeenaijababe said...

I am so sorry to hear of the loss, this was a very touching read, thanks for blogging about it, reminds me to always speak all to dear ones, not avoid and call more often. May the Lord almight comfort you in this time of grieve. God be with you, he will heal your pain....hugs from YNC

Good Naija Girl said...

I am so sorry for your loss, Funke. God IS good, and the ways in which He works are not always understood by us.

Life is short o...we take things for granted all the time but really we do not know.

May he rest in peace...I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

May his soul rest in peace... Amen

Sting said...

Sorry for ur loss.

jhazmyn said...

I pray God sees u through this season...my heart goes to you and everyone who was a part of his life

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Myne Whitman said...

May God console you at this point. Believe that he has gone to a better place.

First time here.

Writefreak said...

Oh my God...i'm so sorry to read this news dear...i pray the Holy Spirit comforts you.
Sending you loads of hugs

Olufunke said...

@ aka Bagucci: thanks bros, yes o...I'm trying to trust God, wondering....

@DEE: Thanks so much

@Aloted: Thanks dear, words fail me too, been thinking, wondering, crying and taking it in strides.....

@YNC: thanks dearie, I would, and Amen o, I need this pain to go, the deep feeling of loss.

@GNG: My babe, Thanks o, Yea....I have been thinking a lot, things happen that only God knows....also learning not to take things/people/time for granted. Thanks, I appreciate you.

@Anonymous: Thanks a lot, a a ni fi iru e gba o.

@ Sting: thanks

@jhazmyn: Amen o! thanks, I'm praying too for God to carry everyone through this season

@Myne Whitman: Amen. Thanks for stopping by. I appreciate it.

@Writefreak: Amen, thanks a lot, the comfort the Holy spirit alone can give.............

Tigeress said...

Sorry to hear about ur loss. a friend just lost a friend very recently too- dude was playing football and collasped. I just hope that their soul RIP. And may God grant us long life. Amen.

Justdoyin - Anoda Phase said...

sorry to hear about this loss Olufunke...how are you doing? thanks for the message in this...

Geebee said...

So sorry about the death of your friend. sometimes, these things happen and we cannot understand why but the unquestionable god remains faithful no doubt. I pray the lord consoles you and all that knew this person. Amen. Hope to see you blogging again as usual. Takia sis.

Rita said...

Oh dear...sorry oh..sorry oh...it must really hurt you...sorry...

Afronuts said...

My condolences dear.
May God's love be ur comfort in the saddest of times

Lady A said...

Oh, so sorry to hear this. This was a very touching and sad. I pray for the Lord's peace to be with all of the family. Take it easy.

Lady A said...

Oh, so sorry to hear this. This was a very touching and sad. I pray for the Lord's peace to be with all of the family. Take it easy.

BSNC said...

awww sorry about your friend. may God give you and the family strength..

tobenna said...

Hard to accept when people that we love pass on. Accept it we must, nevertheless for we have the capacity to.

MyOwnThINg said...

I'm so sorry about your loss. I thot my dad will be around but now he's not...I tell you what I see the world slightly different! I pray to God to comfort his families and friends!

Omo Oba said...

I dont know what to say...for fear of sounding trite or saying the obvious but I cry with you, Funke.

SEPTEMBER said...

Hey,I am very sorry. I dont even know what to say, this is so sad.

Rita said...

How are you doing?

Myne Whitman said...

Came across this blog from GNG, hope you're good?

prashant said...

May God Almighty grant him rest in His bossom. Amen.
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